Between a rock and a hard spot…

It’s never a place I like to be. I work in an industry that could take me out of town with a moment’s notice, part of me loves that and another part of me hates it. My bosses all warned me that I would end up sacrificing life experiences to make it in this industry and my jaded little mind kept saying, yeah well I’ll make it work no matter what. The day came sooner rather than later.

Yesterday I came to the realization that a new work opportunity would be taking me out of town the same weekend as my best friend (of 10 years’) wedding. Now, I use the term best friend loosely, sister is more accurate and I was slated to be the maid of honor. The only thing that made breaking the news to her even worse was that it was April Fools Day… but not an April Fools prank. She kept insisting that it was and finally I had to forward her a photo of my texts with my contact confirming and send a picture of the website showing the dates. It was at that point she didn’t take the “oh I’m so happy for you road” she responded just how I would if she gave me the same news, with disbelief and inconsolable hurt. As much as I wanted to fly back that day and at least be there for the day of, it’s just not feasible. I would have to miss the entire last day of the festival and especially since this is a new company I can’t do that. I need them to see how much ass I kick and how valuable I am.

I can’t quite say if I’m going to regret it when I look back but this could be a big stepping stone for me, and at this point in the game I just can’t turn that down. Every opportunity could open the door to more, and I have to try and be willing to do whatever it takes.

So here’s to my breaking heart and my first time truly choosing work over loved ones.

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Big Decisions…

First, a little sentiment from this morning… 

 

i just want to get this off my chest. I’ve decided to make some big decisions in my life.

May: 

  1. Quit subbing at the school I’m currently with and swap to festival work until fall.
  2. Move into the home my brother owns, rent from him and try to fix it up along the way so he can sell it at the end of the year for a profit.

June & July: 

  1. Have first carpal tunnel surgery don’t in June. Once I’m healed have the second done in July. 
  2. Get my certifications to sub in Altamonte Springs so I can keep saving all of my festival money. 

And somewhere in between buy a “new to me” car. I’ve forfeited my dream of having a Volvo C70 and going for a Ford Fusion maybe Hyundai Sonata. While I’m sad to see my pretty Volvo go away I’m excited to be buying my second car in cash and avoiding having a payment. 

Don’t you ever wish you didn’t have to make adult choices? Sometimes I just want to hide out in a blanket fort and marathon Harry Potter.